January Between Workshops: Ceremony 3

This was my 5th Ayahuasca experience--I had done two before the first Workshop.

Background:
During the previous ceremonies my head would kind of hurt..It was like I could feel the magnetization going on in my brain and this magnetization was this very heavy and rigid super-highway of neuronal connectivity that seemed to be the thought patterns my mind has formulated over 22 years, they were clearly too concrete and seemed to be limiting my growth and limiting my thought processes--keeping me sort of close minded, where I would only interpret reality through these very defined patterns, never allowing for something new.
Note: it was very interesting to feel this in my brain and allocating this feeling to rigid thought patterns was innate to the feeling, opposed to having been conceptualized after an analysis of the feeling.

Intention:
Heal my mind (in reference to above)

Experience:
Very physical.
Not too long into the ceremony I went to the bathroom and vomited.
Then for the next 1.5 hours I was opening up the mucous passage ways in my head through this kind of gag reflex that makes you choke almost. This felt incredible great though, rather than painful because I was purging gross shit out of me. This choke-type feeling would cycle through various degrees, continually hitting a pinnacle where this gag-throw-up sound would come out, but it was different and much more intense. It sounded like a bird squawking. This was accompanied by myself feeling like a bird-type creature, similar to the representation of the Egyptian god Thoth. This was just the first of many Egyptian archetypes that I experienced. 

In the midst of all the squawking, Colin came into the bathroom to see if I was alright, then returned 5 minutes later, burning some palosanto, a wood incense.

Colin then proceeded to do his own brand of healing on me, which was absolutely incredible. He held the palosanto close to my skin and would blow on the burning end, rushing hot air onto my skin. He did this up and down my body (I was only wearing shorts). He combined this with simple Reiki hand positions, placing his hand on my chest/heart, on my head, on my feet (which he did just as I was thinking/feeling my feet were in need of it). Together these techniques filled me with energy and power--what I thought of in my head as vital energy. I was up against the wall, broad-chested, standing tall (looking huge, for my chest, stomach, and neck muscles had all been flexed for the past hour or so while I was squawking) and I just began to laugh. It felt ecstatic and I was in amazement for what he was doing to me and the energy I was receiving from him/the Source, if you will.
As all of this was happening, my stomach was getting larger and larger, the Ayahuasca was just brewing something nasty to detox me.

I finally went to lie down in the Maloka, still with a brewing stomach. Finally after another hour or so, I went back to the bathroom and pissed out my ass for so long. Sorry, openly discussing shit-pissing is done quite frequently at the Temple, since it is soo obvious that it is happening to everyone. It is nice to be at a place where it is okay to do/discuss something like shit-pissing and everyone actually talking about how great it is to get all of that nastiness out of your system.

Lol, ridiculous.